Sunday, June 12, 2011

Trusting My Lord

We all know that not every day is a stellar day, not every road a sunshiney, clear path.  Sometimes there are thistles and thorns and dark skies that pour rain.  Today was a day like that for my heart.  I feel like a few things in my life that I don't like or understand sneak up and slap me in the face when I'm not looking. The only thing to do when I feel this way is turn it over to my Lord. I did this several times today, sometimes while weeping. 


It's so difficult to face issues in life of which we have no control come and swirl overhead like threatening thunder clouds.   Feelings of helplessness and frustration are just waiting to bound out, center stage.  It's an extreme challenge for me because I am such a problem solver. I have learned that the only way to deal with it is to cry out to Jesus. He knows all about suffering and he's been tempted in every way that we have.


Hebrews 4:14
Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.
For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.
Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.


So here's one of my favorite songs I thought I'd share with you. 


Do I Trust You Lord? (Twila Paris)


Sometimes my little heart can't understand
What's in Your will, what's in Your plan.
So many times I'm tempted to ask You why,
But I can never forget it for long.
Lord, what You do could not be wrong.
So I believe You, even when I must cry.


Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the river flow?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the north wind blow?
You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?


I know the answers, I've given them all.
But suddenly now, I feel so small.
Shaken down to the cavity in my soul.
I know the doctrine and theology,
But right now they don't mean much to me.
This time there's only one thing I've got to know.


Do I trust You, Lord?
Does the robin sing?
Do I trust You, Lord?
Does it rain in spring?
You can see my heart,
You can read my mind,
And You got to know
That I would rather die
Than to lose my faith
In the One I love.
Do I trust You, Lord?
Do I trust You?


I will trust You, Lord, when I don't know why.
I will trust You, Lord, till the day I die.
I will trust You, Lord, when I'm blind with pain!
You were God before, and You'll never change.
I will trust You.
I will trust You.
I will trust You, Lord.
I will trust You.


Amen. Let us trust and praise the Lord in sunshine and rain. Not because we understand, but because he is good. We cannot follow our feelings around because they're temporal and tossed on the waves. I choose to lead my heart and my feelings and trust the Lord when I don't understand.  He's reigning and so intimately involved in the details of our lives.  His timing is so perfect because of his omnipotence.
My prayers today: "When I'm blind with pain....yes, I will trust you Lord."

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